Unattached to things

I have an impending sense of freedom. I keep believing that I will feel something magical when that moment arises. As if there will be a new emotion, a new certain sense of self that will arise, at that point. A weight will lift, a sudden pang – a realization – of what is right and how one should be, will occur. And when it happens…
I will control my future. I will dictate what my own next step is. I will choose between what I believe and I choose to leave behind. There will be no “needs” or “social acceptance” that I will strive for. I will look out and I will see a path. It won’t be shown by signs, nor by magical lights or even some build in magnetic sense…I will simply go toward what is logical, what makes emotional sense and where I feel I will be living as a sentient being ought to. We are unique creatures on this planet. And we have a debt which is far deeper than anything “society” says we should pay. Homage should be given to our genetics. Respect should be given to our evolutionary lineage. We have the responsibility to deem this existence a tool, to be wielded and to be used, when needed, as a weapon of great strength against all of which we strive to tear down.

And so I will…