I work…a little too much for my philosophical hippie side that thinks the few processions to do own now cause me to be overweight and fastened down…but not living on a farm and eating from the earth does the same thing for that side of me. However when I am done working I find myself wanting. Not to go back to work though…cus 50-55 hours a week of that office is enough for me. I need to recharge. But recharging is simply focusing elsewhere and letting my brain do that…it is not equivalent to my sometimes evening fare of reading all 50 of my websites until there is nothing more to ferret out from the world news rat and then cleaning, playing with the cat and talking to the crazy guy in my building. I want to increase who I am. I want to widen the walls of the me. I could go to a museum. Watch films. These would give me a slightly wider perspective on the world. Maybe I could do time in a business sense with a not for profit. Or join some after-hours science think tank. Those would be interesting things to do. Benefiting some grand body in this world while keeping my mind moving and gaining value in a way that I find worth it. I want to do something that I can look at as an investment and be driven to do it by both the potential long term pay-off and, being the key argument, that I actually want to do it and feel good doing it (kinda like the job that isn’t really a job because you would do it for free).

 

What to do? What to do…